I've been avoiding my blogging lately.
Had another ultra sound, still haven't heard anything at all about anything. This silence is killing me. So I called my doctor and she is out of the office for the rest of the week. Lovely eh?
*sigh* I'm still on bed rest...ha ha ha! With a ton of errands to do. House is looking great though...thanks to cleaning lady help. I have bright yellow daffodils on my table that look amazing. I still want lilies though. I love lilies! Especially orange ones.
Found out yesterday that easter is next week....not this week. So I have to wait to easter shop until next weekend. Apparently my in-laws are busy next week....so they wanted to have easter dinner this weekend. Somebody should have still told me that it was not this weekend.
grrr..... Other then that....nothing new. Still waiting to hear from the bank. Hopefully we'll know by next week.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
It's another boy!
Found out that it's another boy!
So the Sprout is having a Sprog for a sibling instead of a sprig. Hope he's happy with that. I think I've decided enough is enough, I don't want anymore. At least if I want more, no more pregnancies like this one!
Gees Louise! What is this crap? I am better today. Mostly sore. No more sudden onslaughts of excruitiating pain! Thank some God up there!
So the Sprout is having a Sprog for a sibling instead of a sprig. Hope he's happy with that. I think I've decided enough is enough, I don't want anymore. At least if I want more, no more pregnancies like this one!
Gees Louise! What is this crap? I am better today. Mostly sore. No more sudden onslaughts of excruitiating pain! Thank some God up there!
Thursday, March 22, 2007
*sigh*
Once again I've been to the ER....actually twice in the last two days. I have an ultrasound booked for today. We'll see how that goes. I"m going to ask what it is today. I need to know....so I can start calling it by it's full name when it gives trouble like it has been.
I'm praying everything is alright. I'm praying that the pain I was feeling last night isn't my placenta still tearing. I'm so scared I'm going to lose this baby.
All the things I've been working on, the past couple weeks, just don't seem as important right now. If I'm stuck in the ass end of the universe for a little while longer...then I guess I'm stuck here. Rather have a healthy baby then a job.
Once again I've been to the ER....actually twice in the last two days. I have an ultrasound booked for today. We'll see how that goes. I"m going to ask what it is today. I need to know....so I can start calling it by it's full name when it gives trouble like it has been.
I'm praying everything is alright. I'm praying that the pain I was feeling last night isn't my placenta still tearing. I'm so scared I'm going to lose this baby.
All the things I've been working on, the past couple weeks, just don't seem as important right now. If I'm stuck in the ass end of the universe for a little while longer...then I guess I'm stuck here. Rather have a healthy baby then a job.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Massive Doubts?
Wow....I was up at 4am this morning and let me tell you about all the doubts that came running to my head about any of this starting a new job crap.
What am I doing leaving a new born with my husband? Why am I moving across the country for a job that's only a contract? Can I leave a new born full time? How bad will the guilt be? Is it worth it. Once they head to day care, we are looking at 1500 a month just in child care? Why can't someone just pay me that?
Do I want someone else raising my children? This is huge. Then on the other hand, I"m looking at other jobs!
I don't get myself!
What am I doing leaving a new born with my husband? Why am I moving across the country for a job that's only a contract? Can I leave a new born full time? How bad will the guilt be? Is it worth it. Once they head to day care, we are looking at 1500 a month just in child care? Why can't someone just pay me that?
Do I want someone else raising my children? This is huge. Then on the other hand, I"m looking at other jobs!
I don't get myself!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
What I Need To Accomplish
So...there is a list of things I need to do.
- Get Job - obviously the rest lies on this
- Rewrite my cover letter and resume
- Figure out how to get to interview
- Ask Doctors Approval
- Find a place to live between May and August
- Find reliable child care
- Figure out transportation
- Figure out what to take with me
- How I'm going to get it there
- What to do with this place and then execute that
- Rob
The Back-Up Plan?
Ok....so someone asked me yesterday what my back-up plan was if I don't get this job in London. Well...there is no back-up plan. I don't get the job, I stay here and three months after the baby is born I start looking for another job in southern ontario. Hopefully I'll have one by the time the baby is 6 months old and rob can still take pat leave.
I'll keep my fingers crossed for the first, and the second will have to take care of it's self.
*sigh*
We have a charity dinner tonight....not really looking forward to it. Yesterday's running around took a lot out of me. I'd just love to veg today. Also, we got snow. Lots of snow and it's still snowing. I hate this unpredictable weather. grrrr.....
my cats were apparently starving this morning, had no food. they were so happy with food that they were eating what I spilled before I could get it into the dish! Poor babies!
I'll keep my fingers crossed for the first, and the second will have to take care of it's self.
*sigh*
We have a charity dinner tonight....not really looking forward to it. Yesterday's running around took a lot out of me. I'd just love to veg today. Also, we got snow. Lots of snow and it's still snowing. I hate this unpredictable weather. grrrr.....
my cats were apparently starving this morning, had no food. they were so happy with food that they were eating what I spilled before I could get it into the dish! Poor babies!
Friday, March 16, 2007
Whooosh!
The time just seems to be Whooshing by.
I am applying for a job in London and if I get it, then I will be moving to London!
The timing isn't the greatest but I think this is salvation. So I will be trusting Rob with a Newborn in order to get us out of here. I know it will mean big changes for everyone, but I believe we will be able to Handle this just fine.
I, actually, get to look for my own house and I've already started doing that. Just have to figure out what my priorities are for that said house and we can go from there. I say that, but let me tell you...that's a big thing.
*sigh* I also have to worry about....child care, finding an apartment, transportation, and other things....don't forget, moving costs, packing up this place, furniture, etc..etc... so many little things, only one little me!
I am applying for a job in London and if I get it, then I will be moving to London!
The timing isn't the greatest but I think this is salvation. So I will be trusting Rob with a Newborn in order to get us out of here. I know it will mean big changes for everyone, but I believe we will be able to Handle this just fine.
I, actually, get to look for my own house and I've already started doing that. Just have to figure out what my priorities are for that said house and we can go from there. I say that, but let me tell you...that's a big thing.
*sigh* I also have to worry about....child care, finding an apartment, transportation, and other things....don't forget, moving costs, packing up this place, furniture, etc..etc... so many little things, only one little me!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
I'm on another count down.
As of yesterday....we found out that the tear hasn't gotten any bigger but that this baby will definitely be coming early.
We also found out that the baby is a bit older then we thought which means it's even better. 8 days until it's viable. 7 weeks until I can safely deliver without way too many problems. 10 weeks even better.
15 is the best. I say that, but of course 21 would be the ultimate, that would be full term.
I have my next ultrasound on the 28th of march....then I will ask if it's a boy or girl. So I'm taking bets.... on day of birth and of course sex.
Other then that....Sprout is trying to give me a heart attack still. His table climbing days are getting faster and faster. At least he hasn't base jumped off it yet!
We also found out that the baby is a bit older then we thought which means it's even better. 8 days until it's viable. 7 weeks until I can safely deliver without way too many problems. 10 weeks even better.
15 is the best. I say that, but of course 21 would be the ultimate, that would be full term.
I have my next ultrasound on the 28th of march....then I will ask if it's a boy or girl. So I'm taking bets.... on day of birth and of course sex.
Other then that....Sprout is trying to give me a heart attack still. His table climbing days are getting faster and faster. At least he hasn't base jumped off it yet!
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Another Day in Paradise!
I'm feeling much better after my nap. I'm seeing things in a brighter light. I'd almost say I'm happy today.
Last night though. Poor baby. He was up a good part of the night until we realized he slept better sitting up. So he slept a good part of the night propped up against me. So you can imagine how early 7am came this morning. Since we put the clocks forward....it was very early!
Now I just have to find someone willing to come and clean my house! Any takers?????
Last night though. Poor baby. He was up a good part of the night until we realized he slept better sitting up. So he slept a good part of the night propped up against me. So you can imagine how early 7am came this morning. Since we put the clocks forward....it was very early!
Now I just have to find someone willing to come and clean my house! Any takers?????
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Another Day At The ER
This time, not me!
The Sprout has developed, get this, Croup! He sounds horrible, he's feeling crappy.
We weren't at the ER long, thank ye gods for that! They took him almost immediately. Gave him some cortisol, a ventilin treatment and Prescriptions for anti-biotics and more ventilin. He is sleeping now, but I feel pretty bad for him. He sounds pretty rough still. Apparently I was reading, that this will take a few days to clear up.
The Doctor was great. He said to feel free to come back any time and gave me some hints to clear it up and to get the medication down. They were also all surprised at well the Sprout behaved. Besides getting restless towards the end after they had treated him, they said you wouldn't even have known there was a baby in the ER. They all thought he was adorable too.
Other things that have gone wrong in the past couple days. We have a nail in our tire. Big Bitch(our big computer) is not currently working. The Sprout knocked it over and I'm not sure what has been disconnected but something has. Otherwise something else major is dead and well we're in trouble.
On top of all that, the house is a complete mess. Rob can't load the dishwasher to save his life and I'm so sore that doing anything major besides sitting is pretty much killing me. Taking the Sprout to the ER today pretty much almost did me in.
The baby is moving though, so I'm assuming "it" is ok. I have no other good news besides that. *sigh* What a week!
The Sprout has developed, get this, Croup! He sounds horrible, he's feeling crappy.
We weren't at the ER long, thank ye gods for that! They took him almost immediately. Gave him some cortisol, a ventilin treatment and Prescriptions for anti-biotics and more ventilin. He is sleeping now, but I feel pretty bad for him. He sounds pretty rough still. Apparently I was reading, that this will take a few days to clear up.
The Doctor was great. He said to feel free to come back any time and gave me some hints to clear it up and to get the medication down. They were also all surprised at well the Sprout behaved. Besides getting restless towards the end after they had treated him, they said you wouldn't even have known there was a baby in the ER. They all thought he was adorable too.
Other things that have gone wrong in the past couple days. We have a nail in our tire. Big Bitch(our big computer) is not currently working. The Sprout knocked it over and I'm not sure what has been disconnected but something has. Otherwise something else major is dead and well we're in trouble.
On top of all that, the house is a complete mess. Rob can't load the dishwasher to save his life and I'm so sore that doing anything major besides sitting is pretty much killing me. Taking the Sprout to the ER today pretty much almost did me in.
The baby is moving though, so I'm assuming "it" is ok. I have no other good news besides that. *sigh* What a week!
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Day Two of Bedrest
So my house is already beginning to look like a tornado was here....or should I say an Ornado was here? Dishes are piling up and the floor so needs to be washed. I called around yesterday to see if I can afford to have someone come in once a week to wash my floors and do all that crap.
I need a housekeeper/nanny is actually what I need. There is no way I can get around picking the Sprout up. It's just impossible. *sigh*
So other then that. Nada is happening. I talked to Missy T. last night. She is doing better after the loss of her poor cat. She's looking forward to Vegas. I'm looking forward to pictures.
I'm hoping to have my scrapbook stuff moved up today. Then I'll have something I can do at least. I'll just put it on one of those bed trays. I just have to find it! I'm sure it's around somewhere, ironically from being on bed rest with the Sprout!
I need a housekeeper/nanny is actually what I need. There is no way I can get around picking the Sprout up. It's just impossible. *sigh*
So other then that. Nada is happening. I talked to Missy T. last night. She is doing better after the loss of her poor cat. She's looking forward to Vegas. I'm looking forward to pictures.
I'm hoping to have my scrapbook stuff moved up today. Then I'll have something I can do at least. I'll just put it on one of those bed trays. I just have to find it! I'm sure it's around somewhere, ironically from being on bed rest with the Sprout!
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Abruption
I spent several hours in the ER yesterday. About 2am that morning I experienced severe pain. It was so bad that I wanted Rob to call 911. Then it let up. So I went back to sleep. When I got up in the morning there was blood in my panties.
I immediately dropped the Sprout off with the in-laws and headed to the ER. The good thing was I saw a doctor almost immediately. Was sent off for an ultrasound. Sent back to ER to wait a while, so I called Rob.
I have had what they call an abruption.
Isn't that just great???
I am on Bed rest until I see my doctor on Monday. I am not supposed to lift anything over 4 pounds, and no sex(as if this is even an option, my tummy is so bloody sore that I didn't want the doctor touching me let alone anyone else!)
I have a one year old running around, who weighs more then four pounds! More like 25, and yet they expect me to not lift him? Back to reality. I have no one to come and stay with me, I have no one to really go and stay with. I'm frustrated beyond all hell.
I am so worried and of course my blood pressure is high, so this isn't helping.
*sigh* I just want to cry.
It's been a pretty bad day, it's only 10 am. I have to admit yesterday was worse. I hate the waiting. I'm almost 18 weeks, 12 more and this baby is viable.
Tick Tock!
I immediately dropped the Sprout off with the in-laws and headed to the ER. The good thing was I saw a doctor almost immediately. Was sent off for an ultrasound. Sent back to ER to wait a while, so I called Rob.
I have had what they call an abruption.
Abruptio placenta (an abruption) occurs when the placenta partially separates from the wall of the uterus before the delivery of the fetus. The bleeding that results may come out of the cervix or it may stay between the placenta and the uterus. This can be a dangerous situation for the mother and the baby since the mother may be losing blood and the blood flow to the fetus may be decreased.
The cause of abruptio placenta is unknown. Some conditions that are associated with it include:
• | Increased maternal age and parity (number of previous deliveries) |
• | Pregnancy induced hypertension or chronic hypertension |
• | Preterm prematurely ruptured membranes |
• | External trauma (rare) |
• | Cocaine abuse |
• | Uterine tumors |
• | Previous abruptio placenta |
Signs and symptoms of abruptio placenta can vary. The major symptom is bleeding. You may also experience uterine tenderness, back pain, or frequent contractions.
Treatment will depend on the baby's age and the amount of blood loss. If there is a lot of bleeding, delivery of the fetus and treatment of hemorrhage (excessive bleeding) will be done. If there is not much blood loss, treatment may depend on the status and the age of the fetus. The mother and baby will have to be monitored closely, but the goal is to prolong the pregnancy to increase fetal growth and development. In most cases, tocolytic drugs (to stop contractions) are not used, but your doctor will discuss this with you if it is an option. A vaginal delivery may be an option, but if there is prolonged bleeding or a total separation of the placenta, delivery of the baby is by means of an immediate cesarean section.
Isn't that just great???
I am on Bed rest until I see my doctor on Monday. I am not supposed to lift anything over 4 pounds, and no sex(as if this is even an option, my tummy is so bloody sore that I didn't want the doctor touching me let alone anyone else!)
I have a one year old running around, who weighs more then four pounds! More like 25, and yet they expect me to not lift him? Back to reality. I have no one to come and stay with me, I have no one to really go and stay with. I'm frustrated beyond all hell.
I am so worried and of course my blood pressure is high, so this isn't helping.
*sigh* I just want to cry.
It's been a pretty bad day, it's only 10 am. I have to admit yesterday was worse. I hate the waiting. I'm almost 18 weeks, 12 more and this baby is viable.
Tick Tock!
Monday, March 05, 2007
Monday Morning Couldn't Guarentee!
So it's once again Monday. Ick! The weather is crappy today....snowing again!
DH is working days....he was up this morning at 4:38 trying not to wake me in order to turn off the alarm before it woke me up. I don't know if he slept that well. I was so tired I rolled over and didn't budge until the baby woke me up at 6am and then again at 7am.
It's detail clean the kitchen today. Not looking forward to it.
What I am looking forward to....is I finally got black ink! Woohoo for me! I can now print out some of the journaling for my scrapbook pages. I've already typed up a bunch of stuff and am looking forward to that.
The basement is moving along. Almost got the floor cleared. Have a new light fixture put up down there too! Rob also finished the electrical. So...things are finally moving. I'm so proud of him and me!
The baby gate is also being installed today. At least he was pretty sure. Tomorrow at the latest. I am looking forward to that. Next is just to finish the baby's room and we can let the baby run around the entire house. It will be different. Not sure if I am looking forward to that.
I know he'll be safer when we go in and out of the house....that's for sure.
Anyhow...should feed the baby some fruit!
DH is working days....he was up this morning at 4:38 trying not to wake me in order to turn off the alarm before it woke me up. I don't know if he slept that well. I was so tired I rolled over and didn't budge until the baby woke me up at 6am and then again at 7am.
It's detail clean the kitchen today. Not looking forward to it.
What I am looking forward to....is I finally got black ink! Woohoo for me! I can now print out some of the journaling for my scrapbook pages. I've already typed up a bunch of stuff and am looking forward to that.
The basement is moving along. Almost got the floor cleared. Have a new light fixture put up down there too! Rob also finished the electrical. So...things are finally moving. I'm so proud of him and me!
The baby gate is also being installed today. At least he was pretty sure. Tomorrow at the latest. I am looking forward to that. Next is just to finish the baby's room and we can let the baby run around the entire house. It will be different. Not sure if I am looking forward to that.
I know he'll be safer when we go in and out of the house....that's for sure.
Anyhow...should feed the baby some fruit!
Sunday, March 04, 2007
So...I Am Really Getting Into this Scrapbook Thing
Ironically, I am finding that I really like this scrap-booking thing. The only reason I really started it was because I would really like a nice record of Orin and of course any other children we have. I am actually pretty good at laying stuff out. My only issue is that I seem to be having a hard time putting any embellishments on the pages.
Part of this, is the fact that I am worried I won't be able to move them after they have been applied and of course the fact that it will look awful after it has been applied. I like the rub on stuff because I can cut it out and lay it on the page and not have to guess at what it looks like.
I just recently had a book from the library that was a big help and did a lot to inspire me. I now want to start using more fancier embellishments and did I mention that I loved the dollar stores for this stuff? They now have a huge line of all kinds of stuff. They have actually been quite nice.
Someone at my hairdresser's also just gave me a number for a woman who sells creative memories. I am dying to call her and see when her next class is. I also need some things, like page protectors and other crap. I will have to make a list.
I'm so excited! I really have become a Mom!
Part of this, is the fact that I am worried I won't be able to move them after they have been applied and of course the fact that it will look awful after it has been applied. I like the rub on stuff because I can cut it out and lay it on the page and not have to guess at what it looks like.
I just recently had a book from the library that was a big help and did a lot to inspire me. I now want to start using more fancier embellishments and did I mention that I loved the dollar stores for this stuff? They now have a huge line of all kinds of stuff. They have actually been quite nice.
Someone at my hairdresser's also just gave me a number for a woman who sells creative memories. I am dying to call her and see when her next class is. I also need some things, like page protectors and other crap. I will have to make a list.
I'm so excited! I really have become a Mom!
Friday, March 02, 2007
Hitched without a Hitch!
It's been about a week since I was here...
My brother got hitched without a hitch...not the best wedding I've been to...not the worst.
We were home by 12:30. I am just not into this whole wedding thing anymore. All they do is tear families and friends apart. *sigh* All for one stupid bloody day. What a shame. I didn't take a lot of photos...have every intention of snaring them from someone else.
One day I'll find my niche. Just not sure when. I really should start writing again. Maybe I'll be able to do something then. If at all. Maybe I was just designed to be a baby machine.
My son looks like he is done his lunch...he has KD all over his face. A nice Orange glow! LOL. He has picked up language skills lately...all kinds of different sounds. He almost has Cat down. We are getting there....He won't be shutting up before I know it!
My brother got hitched without a hitch...not the best wedding I've been to...not the worst.
We were home by 12:30. I am just not into this whole wedding thing anymore. All they do is tear families and friends apart. *sigh* All for one stupid bloody day. What a shame. I didn't take a lot of photos...have every intention of snaring them from someone else.
One day I'll find my niche. Just not sure when. I really should start writing again. Maybe I'll be able to do something then. If at all. Maybe I was just designed to be a baby machine.
My son looks like he is done his lunch...he has KD all over his face. A nice Orange glow! LOL. He has picked up language skills lately...all kinds of different sounds. He almost has Cat down. We are getting there....He won't be shutting up before I know it!
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